Ok, so here’s the deal. I’m not running.
I’m not running because I can’t. Well, I CAN, but it really fucking hurts which is really fucking frustrating.
I had got to a stage where I could run a 10k on a Tuesday night at Run Dem and feel great about it. I mean, it would be hard and I’d have to push myself, but it’s 10k that I wouldn’t have been doing this time last year, so it #totallyfriggincounts. I’ve made so many new friends through running, made international connections and I’ve been building something that is essentially borne from running and now I’m on a time-out that seems to be lasting FOREVER.
Remember when I posted that I wasn’t running because my lower legs hurt? I decided then to take a few weeks off and rest to alleviate the stress on my legs. I had about two weeks of painful shins and sore calves when even stepping off a kerb hurt and stairs would make me sweat with the effort of walking down them (down is always worse than up with whatever this is), and then things started feeling better. I kept off the running though, just to make sure. I figured I’d wait out the month and start running at the beginning of June.
It got to a stage where I really missed running. I felt like I was missing out or being left out because I hadn’t laced up my trainers and worn Lycra for anything other than a fashion statement. I grabbed every opportunity to take a Barclay’s Bike because I wanted to feel like I was being productive. I dunno, I think I missed the adrenaline.
Anyway, I laced up running trainers for Ed Skrein’s video project and was filmed running through Shoreditch at the end of May. Other than the heat, my legs were making it really uncomfortable to keep running and I was glad it was only an hour in front of the camera. Any more than that and I would have melted into a crying, sweaty heap in front of everyone sitting in the sun at Boxpark.
I also did a couple of short bursts of running and jogging for photographs for Japan’s Corner Magazine which made me think that I either need to train to run in a more efficient manner (it’s likely that I’m doing something wrong) or I need to rest for a bit longer.
But then Sunday came around. I was chilling with John Law from the NY Bridge Runners, Jeggi, Denis and Rosie, watching the Queen’s Jubilee boat procession on tv and avoiding the crowds and the rain. Apparently we were all congregated to chill, eat and run. I was only aware of the first two activities but definitely wanted to hit Tarmac while Law was in town and a mini Run Dem sesh was in place at my house.
So we ran. 2.5 miles. Rosie was under strict Charlie Dark orders to do no running, so we grabbed a Boris bike so she could join in the fun.
Except it wasn’t a fun run. I usually love running with Jeggi, he’s probably the best company to have while you’re out on the street, but I didn’t enjoy it at all. I felt really unfit - no running for a month definitely took its toll on my lung capacity. My legs were screaming from the moment I moved at a faster pace than a walk. Every time I stopped, I would feel surges of pain shooting up my shins and my calves felt tense. I couldn’t relax to keep running so I was caught in a catch-22 where nothing could relieve the pain.
I took the next day off work and finally took the advice of so many people and really rested. It’s two days later and my legs still hurt. I’ve iced them, elevated them, massaged them and booked in to see a physio, but MAN I am scared she’s going to tell me something I don’t want to hear!
I’m sitting in the mezzanine in 1948 at the moment waiting for everyone to get back from tonight’s run. Totally bummed.
I know this is a complete 180 from last year’s attitude to exercise but…
NOT RUNNING SUCKS.
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- nothingtodisplay answered: 180 :-)
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- countdowntooz answered: I had the same problems when training for Edinburgh. I ran through it and now have to take a lot of time off to heal. Look after yourself!
- orsii answered: I love you. And I miss you. And I miss running with you. And I am experiencing the same thing so feel your pain (LITERALLY!) xxxx
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