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March 2012

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Pre-race Prep.

I’ve been chilling at the hotel with my brother for the majority of today. We pretty much just left the building to go to the expo to register for the race and pick up our race numbers and grab other free stuff (way too much orange Adidas stuff for my liking, but they’re the bloody sponsor and beggars can’t be choosers etc, etc). It’s actually really cold out here and when it rains it’s just ANNOYINGLY wet and cold. This is nothing, though, compared to when it hails. We had about 10 minutes of petit pois sized bits of ice hurtling down and clearing the streets which basically just got me soaked and made me want my bed.
We also went out to meet the girls for dinner except that it became one huuuuuge gathering and turned out to be a really good pre-race hug-fest. Bangs, Orsi, Candice, Bridget, Elle, Rhalou, Chris (my brother), Luke, Chaka, John (NY Bridge Runners), then Mubi, Denis, Petra, Hanne, Drew, Dominic, Josey and more and then Veema, Nathaniel, Darcy and Jenny. Sick group! There were probably around 1/3 of all the RDC members out here. Plus a Whasian Brooklyn Bridge Runner. We didn’t plan or choose that restaurant beforehand, we just stumbled across it, but I’m glad everyone was there.

Tonight, I’ve just been double checking my kit, getting my safety pins ready and giving myself a manicure. Priorities, init.

I wanted to be calm before I fell asleep but my brother just made me laugh so hard I snorted the water I was drinking out through my nose so now literally everything is making me laugh, my nose and throat hurt and my bed is slightly damp. Classy, I know.

Anyway. Bed time. I’ve got my first race in the morning.

GAAAAAHHH!

Mar 31, 2012
#RDCbridgethegap #rundemcrew #gohardorgohome
Running stuff.

In two thirds of a year I have managed to accumulate enough running and training wear to make a full load of washing. This is quite a substantial amount of Lycra and DriFit.

And this now means that I don’t have to remove bits of my running uniform from the washing machine before putting the conditioner in for the rest of my laundry.

Does this make me a real ‘runner’ now?

Mar 30, 2012
#running #training
Packing for Berlin.

Round 2 of packing is about to commence. I am incapable of packing lightly. I just don’t have the capacity to do this yet, although I am making it one of my life ambitions just because it’s a very necessary skill when you’re not rich enough to have someone carry your bags for you.
Last night at mine, I threw a whole heap of stuff in a suitcase and drove back to my mum’s. Now I have to work out how to downsize this stuff by at least half so it will fit in the other side of the suitcase my brother and I are sharing.

This means that I cannot possibly take all 4 of the pairs of trainers that I have packed. I have running trainers, city-exploring trainers, trainers for the rain (of which there is lots in Berlin this weekend) and a pair to party in. Now, I don’t see this as too much for 3 days, but evidently we’re going to have to leave a pair behind. Might just leave the running ones…

Mar 30, 2012
#RDCbridgethegap #gohardorgohome #rundemcrew #running #packing #half marathon #HOLIDAY
Mar 29, 2012
#RDCbridgethegap #rundemcrew #gohardorgohome #berlinhalfmarathon
Mar 29, 2012
#run #goh #RDC #BRIDGE THE GAP #NIKE #NY #NEW YORK #BROOKLYN BRIDGE RUNNERS #whasian mafia
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The Final Countdown... BERLIN HALF MARATHON!

Ah guys, I’m sorry, I’ve been AWOL. I haven’t been blogging because I’ve been working long hours, eating great food and not getting enough sleep. Living a kind of lavish lifestyle on my non-lavish budget. I’ve been scoffing even more burgers than usual, occasionally (quite often, in fact) tucking into some Japanese food with friends, eating my weight in steak and pulled pork sandwiches and I’ve even got back into the habit of dessert after every meal (I tried to stop this a few months ago). The food part sounds great (it was great, it IS great) but the worrying part is that I’ve been sleep-deprived for nearly 2 months now. I’m not the kind of girl who can usually function on 3-4 hours sleep per night, but since the beginning of February, that’s been my vibe. This is largely due to race but mostly non-race stress factors. It’s gotten to the point where I’m just used to looking and feeling like my eyes are glassy and my face is puffy and feeling like my body made of jelly and/or lead, depending on the time of day. This week has been the worst in terms of almost a complete lack of energy and therefore utter apathy towards everything ever in life. I promise I’m concentrating, I promise. I definitely heard what you said just now, uh huh…

That being said, I’ve still kept up the running. This is mainly due to Run Dem Crew (big up Charlie and Bangs keeping me in the game). If it wasn’t for those Tuesday runs, I would have lost my momentum a long time ago. 6 weeks of 4-6 miles every Tuesday night has shown me that this is the kind of thing I’m capable of. It has also shown me that I am most definitely a social runner because the support from that community has been phenomenal (for example, big up Orsi and her motivational text messages).

As a result, in my own time, although I sacked in the Bootcamp sessions over a month ago (probably to my detriment, but we’ll see), I’ve still kept up the running. The last two weeks have been crucial to my own development as a ‘runner’ (LOLZ! Sorry, I’ll never not find that funny) and I’ve had amazing cheerleaders. 2 Sundays ago I managed to run from East Ham to Hackney (6.5 miles - big up Ben). Then this Sunday I literally battled with myself, my brain and my legs to run-walk-run-walk-walk-walk from Bethnal Green to Woolwich, via Tower Bridge (10.6 miles - big up Ben again. Also big up Will and Mrs Will for the flapjacks and layers). Poor Ben, he really took some metaphorical, emotional and at least 2 physical blows from me as I whinged all the way from Whitechapel to Deptford and beyond. No sleep, stress and pure fear for this race have all made me one helluvabitch.

My brother has also been amazing throughout. He’s developed very painful shin splints and is deciding whether to take enough painkillers in order to still try for a new personal best or just to run slow enough to enjoy the experience. I’ve been trying to persuade him to just run with me (he would only have to walk). He’s annoyed, but making light of the situation by texting me worryingly gleeful messages that he has had to shave parts of his legs “for medical purposes”. Aside from that though, he has constantly checked up on my progress for which I have always been grateful. He knows I’m crap at this and the jokes have been as hilarious as the support has been unwavering. He even told me he would pick me up as soon as I hit my 10 mile target on Sunday night and offered advice in terms of direction and alternative routes through South East London to avoid the nasty hills.

At the end of the 10.63 miler on Sunday night, my brother met me on Shooters Hill and drove me the 2 miles to my parents’ house. My mum’s face, of absolute pride was almost overwhelming. I nearly cried while I (sweatily) hugged her and listened to her telling me (in 2 octaves above her normal voice) that she was so proud and happy for me. She already had the table laid out ready for me to sit and eat one wamp meal, full of chickeny goodness. Dude… so, so emotional.

Aside from the race, Berlin is going to be SO OSSUM. I’m looking forward to seeing my team! My #BangsontheRun3 girls! (Sarah, we’ll be thinking of you and Mia). I’ve already met John Law (YO, BIG UP!) from NY, member of the infamous NY Bridge Runners, and this weekend, the city is going to be full of Nike-affiliated run clubs ready to smash up the Berlin race course. The after-party is going to be WILD. I literally cannot WAIT!

This Berlin Half Marathon is going to be so worth it. I’m so glad I’m doing this.


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Mar 29, 20121 note
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In which we view 'Perspective' (20th March 2012)

20th March 2012:

If running has taught me anything, it is the value of perspective. I mean, I thought I had a pretty good grasp of this, but this ongoing development has solidified and enhanced my existing notions, undoubtedly for the better.
I have a habit of saying “PERSPECTIVE” in a joking tone when I realise how silly something is, but it’s not always a joke and sometimes you have to be a grown up and be serious.

In terms of running, my first experience of differing perspective was with the fact that I LOOK like I could easily run without much struggle, but the reality is I found it extremely uncomfortable up until about 3 weeks ago. So, to the external and internal viewpoints, things were seen quite differently.
My main issue with running and perspective is pace and timing. Again, I look like I can run well but the truth is I pretty much just jog, ambling along on 12 minute miles. I’m comfortable with that, but even then, at times, I’m pushed off the sofa in my comfort zone. Now, I’m very happy with my 12 minute miles, to the point that I’m ecstatic when I manage to run a 10-11 minute mile. I’ve not yet hit a 9-10 minute mile, but I’m not sure that I care. My perspective is that I’m happy with my pacing and I’m going to run a half marathon in 2 weeks’ time. My brother, before he started suffering from shin splints, was running 7.5 minute miles, and was working towards a sub-1.5 hour race in Berlin. I’m not looking to finish the race in sub-anything, or even work out splits to make sure each mile is completed in the right amount of time because my priority is just to FINISH. I’m not a racer, but I’m in for the long-haul. Hopefully, my brother, if he can’t face the pain of racing and finishing fast, will be happy to run with me. I doubt it, even his patience can’t be stretched to jog slowly for nearly 3 hours, but I’d rather he run slow now and save himself the injury and triumphantly smack down a triathlon at the end of this year.

Run Dem, with the help of Charlie, has brought to light several instances where perspective becomes a major theme. I have met some really great people through this community, all of whom have contributed towards my changing attitude and experience of running. Running is by no means an easy thing to do for some people, and because I have always struggled with it, and still continue to do so, it is very comforting to hear that you are not the only one not having fun. More importantly, it is particularly insightful, and refreshing to kick yourself out of that well of self-pity that you might be comfortable rolling around in, when you hear that there are runners within the group that have pulled themselves through remarkable and life-altering circumstances and are back on their feet and running, providing inspiration for others. I feel like I need a new word for ‘inspiration’ because it is in danger of becoming cliché, if it hasn’t already. But, regardless, at the moment, when you hear that you are sharing a bench with a woman who has pulled through cancer, has gone through chemotherapy and other stressful treatments, or a man who has been motionless for weeks due to an accident, you get a healthy, and very welcome, dose of perspective. There are stronger people than me who have experienced more unfortunate things than I have. Most often, I am not in a position to complain, and I do really appreciate everything and everyone that contributes to my life. There is sometimes absolutely nothing better than coming home to beaming parents, cracking jokes about your abysmal run. Times like this I remember friends who don’t have the same privilege and I can value the heartbreak that an individual is suffering. As humans, we aren’t always open to accept other’s plights, but perspective teaches me to never underestimate the weight of another person’s burden.

I have mentioned Candice on several occasions throughout this running journal thingy, but she is a very relevant person in my life in regards to my experiences of running. Not only have I run with her (behind her – she is an awesome pacer), but I have had the opportunity to follow her own progression, albeit only relatively recently in the last 4 or 5 months. She’s running a marathon on each continent, literally running the world. Candice is about to go and smash up the London Marathon in April, probably in batty riders, Raybans and lipstick. More fool you if you step in her way. She is a particularly motivating individual and I owe a lot of my own recent running achievements to her, Orsi and Bangs. These ladies, amongst others, have given me more much appreciated lessons on perspective over the last month or 2. If I could mend broken hearts and find you diamonds, physical and metaphorical, I’d do all that I could. Thank you.

Mar 29, 20122 notes
#running #bangsontherun3 #bangs on the run #bangs and a bun #i'm running i promise #training #berlin half marathon #bridge the gap #run dem crew #RDCbridgethegap #gohardorgohome
FML

So, as I lie here on the carpet still sweating and breathing like a rhino, after 1.82miles of whiney running, my only thoughts are of the FML variety. I have under 3 weeks (THREE WEEKS?!!?!??!!!!) until I have to run the Berlin half marathon. I could only manage a mile before I had to walk because I could feel the Nutella I just ate before I set out creeping back up my throat. Note to self: don’t ever eat spoons of Nutella and drink lychee juice together again - they may taste like fatty kid heaven, but they will curdle and taste like bile. As I was running just now (at 11:45pm on a Monday night), my lower legs were in agony. They still ache now. I preferred it when my knees felt like they were constantly on the verge of dislocating. I have no idea why, and I sincerely hope they don’t hurt like that tomorrow at Run Dem. More to the point, I was really struggling. I was running at a considerably faster pace than my usual amble, but still, OUCH. I was really glad to touch base again and once more it looks like I’m back to hating running. How the EFF am I going to run 13.1 miles in 3 weeks time?!

Mar 12, 2012
#running #hackney #training #berlin half marathon
Mar 11, 20122 notes
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Key change.

Why does running have to be so time-consuming? Whats up with that? It makes me wish that I had the capacity to be a sprinter because those short dashes just look like they’d be way more fun than pounding pavement for 3 hours.
Realistically, I’d have to train a whole lot harder and differently in order to be able to competently sprint, so I’m actually better off running this half marathon, but whatever. Hmmmmph.
What annoys me about long distance training is the amount of time that you need to devote to running in order to put your body through what it needs to experience before you turn up on race day. Especially if you’re as slow as I am.
At the moment, the furthest distance that I’ve successfully ran is just over 6 miles. I know I’ve also clocked a 7-miler recently, but I walked half of that so it doesn’t really count. It takes well over an hour to run 6 miles so I’m looking at a 2 hour and 45 minute run in Berlin. That’s so long. And I would really like to be able to run at least 90% of it. I know you can run a half marathon having only trained up to 6 miles and if Bangs can do it, then I’m sure I can too. Apparently, the adrenaline from a race is enough to carry you, but we’ll see. Also I’m pretty sure I could comfortably speed-walk 13.1 miles but that completely defeats the purpose of choosing to do a half marathon and that’s basically the equivalent of an afternoon of shopping anyway, non? I have to be able to run this race.
Cheering my brother and his friend Tim on as they ran the Silverstone half marathon has got me in the mood to run again. This urge to run has crept up on me slowly again and is largely due to Run Dem Crew (whatever hype you’ve heard, it’s true, it really is as good as it sounds) and the fact that race day is less than a month away. Hopefully I can clock up some more miles this week.
I got a session in with Barbara (running guru, haver of hot legs and general badass) yesterday, running laps round Victoria Park trying to put into practice the methods that Babs was teaching the Bangs on the Run girls and I. She reinforced what I learned from a barefoot runner several months ago, and I know it’s going to take a lot of getting used to in order to run comfortably in this way. The idea is to hold yourself upright, keeping strong through your core, lifting up, so to speak, but to lean forward as though there is something pulling at your chest, so that you ALMOST fall forward. Running like this means that you utilise your energy more efficiently as all you really need to do is lift your feet off the pavement because your body weight is already pulling you forward. You don’t even need to make large strides as this is wasting energy. It sounds really simple, and in theory it should be, but I found that it put more pressure on the muscles from my mid-thigh downwards and through my calves and shins. This is because of my underused muscles where I have been running inefficiently for months (I’d say ‘years’ but I have to be honest on this blog thingy). This is going to be a tough month of perfecting this before race day.

It’s Sunday, which, for most people, is long run day. I should have got 9 miles done today but instead I stood screaming from the stands at Silverstone circuit (any excuse) as my brother Chris smashed yet another half marathon in 1 hour 45 minutes and Tim zipped through his first ever race in 2 hours. Seriously proud of both of them. I’m going to try and get a minimum of 13 miles done this week.

This is going to take a considerable amount of willpower.

Blah.

Mar 11, 20121 note
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Finally running with Dem dat Run.

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Aside from the blah attitude to training as a whole, I’ve found one positive light in the last two weeks which has been Run Dem Crew. My motivation took a major slump, but my stamina can now at least take a mile and a bit, so I thought I should take up Charlie’s invitation from Summer last year lest it go stale and crumble into regret. Nervous doesn’t even begin to describe how I felt two Tuesdays ago as I walked into Nike’s 1948 in Shoreditch. Jumpy, nauseous, exhausted, delirious, terrified, excited and exhilarated fit the description much better. It’s like walking into a room where everyone is super-cool and really good at sports and everyone already knows each other, and you’re the new dorky kid who’s shit at PE. Oh, wait…

I was anticipating an excruciatingly embarrassing introduction to the whole crew from Charlie and I wasn’t disappointed. So aside from the fact that 175 people, fresh from their post-work dash to 1948, which made the building toasty to say the least, my blushing was enough to melt the Nike+ Fuelbands being trialled by some of the Run Dem Crew runners. (Side note: Nike+ Fuelbands look so OSSUM in real life!) It didn’t help my burning cheeks when Bangs also pointed out to the crowd that “Mei could really do with everyone’s support because she really, really hates running”. So now everyone knows me as the girl who hates running but still showed up to the running club where everybody loves running. FML.


I knew I wasn’t going to be able to cope in anything but the slowest group, so I put two hands up when Charlie asked who was running in tortoises, one for me and one for my stomach which I felt I was going to leave behind on the bench. I have never been so NERVOUS! But here’s why I love running with people. Candice straight away told me that she would run with me, slower than her usual pace, and Bangs leaned over and said she’d be right there with me too. That is LOVE. Both of these women are working towards different goals, but they still chose to amble along with me.
Denny, Mubi and Dom were there with words of encouragement and niceness. Elles, George and Rhalou were being really excited for me. Peigh was there being Peigh. Chaka was being chatty. And I was there trying not to throw up.

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There were other newmans in my group. Janet was one of them, an old friend of Charlie’s, and I felt relieved knowing I wasn’t the only one who wouldn’t know my way or know how things run at Run Dem with dose dat run. We did a four mile loop from Shoreditch, passing Liverpool Street Station, running over London Bridge and along to Tower Bridge, over and back up to Liverpool Street then dashed back to 1948 to push ourselves right at the end. Absolutely brilliant. I kept a good pace and managed to get my running mojo to resurface. There is NOTHING like running in a group of people who like running, have experience in running and want you to like running too but aren’t overbearingly patronising. There is fresh perspective from everyone. The group runs steadily, slowing down to support those who aren’t having much fun, but still maintaining a good pace to keep momentum going.I didn’t really struggle as much as I thought I would. And, you know what? It is liberating to achieve new successes with your own personal running-demon beat-downs.
Post-run, I got some good advice on how to stretch properly from Mark and spent the next half an hour rolling around the floor, stretching my legs past their usual capacity while I waited for Denis to be ready to grab pancakes for dinner because it was Shrove Tuesday which means it is the law to eat pancakes, or else.

Two weeks in, and I can already vouch for the fact that there’s a lot about Run Dem Crew that makes it so enjoyable. There is a real sense of community where everyone looks after each other, making it quite a self-sufficient group. The benefit of its huge range of members being so (cool and) diverse and based in London is that there is literally at least one of every type of person you would ever need to meet within the group. If something needs doing, someone can always do or provide or knows someone that can. Plus everyone wants the group dynamic to work, so you can literally see people’s commitment. Charlie’s passion and energy is second to none and it’s motivating to be around that buzz.

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The feeling is obviously addictive, because I went back for Run Dem run nombre dos last Tuesday. This time, the nerves weren’t so nervy, I wasn’t such a spaz and I was super happy with the four mile loop we cracked out again. I squeezed in two sprints with Janet and we both agreed we’re ready to try Slow Hares this week. Fleur hung back from the faster group she was running with after tripping over a broken lamppost (SORT IT OUT, HACKNEY COUNCIL) and I got a good chance to learn about her experiences of running half marathons (and stare at her beautiful face) as we ran the last two miles back to 1948. That run was my best yet, aside from all the leery drunk men (there were SO MANY! Why do they all assume that by yelling, “OI, DARLIN’, YOU DON’T NEED TA RUN, YOU’RE GORGEOUS AS YA ARE!” that we’re going to turn around, laugh and flirt girlishly and exclaim that we’d just LOVE to jump into bed with them?). I’m really glad I pushed myself to pick up the pace. I’m nervous about running in Slow Hares this week, but we’ll see how it goes. I’ve got a half marathon to run in less than a month (OMFG!) and I’ve got so much catching up to do.

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Mar 6, 20121 note
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Sheiβe.

I think I need to learn how to swear in German because at the rate I’m going, I’m going to be touring Berlin city wheezing expletives and sobbing as I stumble around the half marathon race course.
I currently feel as though 13 miles isn’t very long, but that’s only because last Friday evening I hit out a good four-miler on my own and without much walking. Ratings to me.
Except I should really be comfortable on at least 8 or 9 miles right now. And that I am not. So I hereby give back those ratings that I so hastily bestowed upon myself. Soz.
I’ve been slacking a little bit (a lottle bit) lately. In fact, you could even say that I’ve fallen completely off the training plan. Sexy in the City Bootcamp training has been unattended for weeks now because of work, house-hunting commitments and last Wednesday I went to James’s funeral. Running has been ignored in favour of repaying my constant sleep debt. Sit ups and press ups have been done only in my dreams.

It’s not that I don’t care. I do. I just have more pressing issues and emotions at hand (urgh, I sound like such a girl). And then I’m so tired and stressed out that the last thing I want to do is wake up at the crack of shit to travel an hour and a half to go and do reverse lunges and be told that I’m doing my planks all wrong. I’ve also only recently realised that I hate the build up to running. It feels like a chore. I have to make sure I’ve eaten a huge meal at least an hour in advance and hydrated myself just enough that I won’t dehydrate too quickly or need to turn back half a mile in to sprint home to pee. I have to pull on both knee supports (tres glam, I know), climb into leggings, strap up in both sports bras (ladies, you need to take care of your assets, you know?) and layer up in DriFit and/or HeatTech and choose which windrunnner I’d like to skip (ha!) along in. Then there’s the pre-run stretching which, let’s face it, I never remember to do, and then finally, the most dreaded - The First Mile.

I now have four weeks left of training, in which I need to get up to at least 11 miles so that I know that I can stay on my feet, moving in a forward direction, for the (yet undisclosed) amount of time that it will take me to run/walk/run-walk/stumble 13.1 miles. FML x a baspillion.

Does anyone have any pre-race and mid-race food suggestions? I can’t run more than 4 miles on a bowl of porridge and, judging by my calculations, I’ve worked out that I’m going to need to pull an all-nighter and eat a bowl of meaty pasta every 2 hours just to have the energy to last the whole 13 miles in the morning.

Mar 5, 2012
#running #training #berlin half marathon #berline halb marathon #OMG I'M GOING TO SUFFER #I WISH I WASN'T SO LAZY #FML X INFINITY
“If you want to run, then run a mile. If you want to experience another life, run a marathon.” —Emil Zatopek (via simon-freeman)
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